How long have you been 17?

I went to the doctor this morning to get my blood pressure checked and he finally dispelled my fears that my heart is going to explode at any minute.

I don't know why i've been so conscious of my own mortality lately. When I was younger I would push my body to the limit safe in the knowledge I'd still be playing well on the football pitch and able to do exactly the same stuff in a few days. I guess it didn't really matter to anybody if I keeled over after 15 pints or got hit by a bus.

But for the last year i've felt like i've got a lot to live for and I guess that's why i've been more conscious of things that might kill me. I don't want to die young and i'm not 17 anymore.

So I have decided, as the Doctor said this morning, that a healthy body is a healthy mind. And I think a blood pressure problem is a pretty good excuse to get into shape and stop taking my life for granted. I've had my luck in many ways, now i'll have to work to keep what I have.

Now i'm going to listen to this new album I bought, 'only by the night' by King's of Leon, and do some much needed work.

Hopefuly Nicole will call me this afternoon cos we didn't get to speak much yesterday and I have this everlasting need to hear her voice every day. She's worked really hard shifting meat for two weeks now, that's my girl, and she is very tired. Think of the money darlin. xXx